https://onlineexhibits.library.illinoisstate.edu/exhibits/files/original/4a021284039c6027ba7b57fca2614bf6.jpg ad631f218a5f9cc199f67edf871c88e8 Dublin Core The Dublin Core metadata element set is common to all Omeka records, including items, files, and collections. For more information see, http://dublincore.org/documents/dces/. Title A name given to the resource Women in the Dr. JoAnn Rayfield Archives, Illinois State University Dublin Core The Dublin Core metadata element set is common to all Omeka records, including items, files, and collections. For more information see, http://dublincore.org/documents/dces/. Title A name given to the resource Celestia R. Colby diary, p. 43 (August 22, 1858) Description An account of the resource Transcript: 43 [...] under the life giving influence of the summer sun. Failing, totally failing in this my dearest aspiration, my soul ["if" crossed out, "is" written above] ever filled with sorrow and sadness, for the loss to myself and family. Have been glancing over the foregoing pages, and fear it is unprofitable work for me to trace on paper, even these first shadows of the dark thoughts of my own mind. But still I feel a sort of pleasure if so strange a feeling may be called a pleasure, in thus holding silent communion with myself. Yet perhaps it were better if I never touched the pen, and one minute I wish I did not love to, the next a stronger, wild and vehement wish, gushes up from my inmost soul, that I had time and leisure to use it at my will. Have been talking with Mrs Knight to day. It matter little what the theme, she and I are always on the opposite side. Wish I could annihilate space to night, and leaving this body behind to prepare its duties unaided by the intellect, while the spirit lingered by the side of distant loved ones, But though the heart travels away to there, it comes back unsatisfied. Will it [underlined: "ever be satisfied below,"] ever raise the exultant Eureka! over the full fruition of all its aspirations? Never, no never, for this is not the lot of mortals. Creator An entity primarily responsible for making the resource Colby, Celestia R. (Celestia Rice), 1827-1900 Source A related resource from which the described resource is derived Colby Family Papers, <a href="https://library.illinoisstate.edu/services/archives/">Dr. Jo Ann Rayfield Archives,</a> Milner Library, Illinois State University (Normal, Illinois) Rights Information about rights held in and over the resource <a href="https://rightsstatements.org/page/NoC-US/1.0/?language=en">No copyright - United States</a> Format The file format, physical medium, or dimensions of the resource diaries; manuscripts Language A language of the resource English Type The nature or genre of the resource Text Identifier An unambiguous reference to the resource within a given context CRC_003_L